I was so led by the spirit on Sunday when i played drums for worship... it's incredible! I just moved to the music, and everything geled so well... the people were worshiping, the band was quite tight..... gee.. how could i even start doubting and believing that God would forsake me in my times of need and discouragement?
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{flashback} on friday, i had my worship practice with the band, and to put in shortly, i was devastated by my own incompetence. i played sooo badly.. just couldn't build up properly.. i was mad at the guitarist for being harsh with me, i was stressed by the presence of 2 pro-drummers beside me. man.. it was literally the 'hotseat'.
I felt terrible after the practice, and at that point, i just felt that i was totally not cut out to be a drummer at all. maybe God didnt want me to serve him in that way ya noe. .. i've felt like this in the past before, but it seems like this time was the worst. the most depressing. the most disheartening. n i felt sooo DiscourageD.
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God gave me a verse when i was writing this blog... *amazed*....

(Proverbs 3: 5-6)
" Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths. "