It is release i seek, and freedom from my bottomless well of sorrow and pain...

There will come a point in time when i will be forced to decide. Either we try again against all odds, or i'll have to use avoidance just like how i did with yijun... I really hate to.. but i'm starting to see that it's the only way i can truely move on... and to save my heart from being trampled on and ravaged by repeated disappointments.