I'm losing this fight badly...
All this feelings slowly building up inside me, dying to be expressed everytime I see you or hear your voice. Yet I have to swallow them back and maintain that nonchalent smile. Gotta be strong for us right? Gotta keep them emotions under control.

It's killing me.. not being able to show the extent of my care for you. But don't worry, I'll keep fighting for the sake of so many things - funny how I keep forgetting what they are - at stake.

Lord, You have to intervene before I entirely lose control of my heart and set myself up for another inevitable disappointment. Ouch~