Found myself reading all the little mails and personal notepad-journals i kept since last time.... it's like a trip down memory lane.. and a reminder of the many sad and sometimes, glad moments i've had.
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Can i find someone who truely cares, someone who loves me without a doubt, .... and who is willing to just be there quietly for me? When i rant and i whine, someone who'll listen patiently... when i cry and i feel broken, to faithfully hold me in his arms... when i face my innermost fears and lash out in defense, to bear the blows and pull me through...

Sometimes I like to imagine. I like to imagine that i'm sitting quietly on a cloud high up in the azure blue sky, surrounded by elusive mists of orange-tinged clouds, looking out into the horizon and seeing infinity.... There's a serene quietness surrounding me; a gentle wind caresses my cheeks and tenderly erases all the scars on my heart. I close my eyes and take a deep breath... and the familiar fragrance of the ocean-spray.. and sometimes a hint of rain and wet earth, fills my being. I opened up my arms.. and i am lifted up by unseen hands... I sense myself soaring ... and I am once again free.