RELATIONSHIPS.
The ability to pierce the heart like no other, to leave a trail of despair and destruction in its wake, to ravage, to make complete fools of us, to strike fear and acute wariness in the hearts of many.
BUT still, we all DESIRE them.
Oh God, why are you reminding me about relationships? I can't counsel others anymore. I've forgotten. I've forgotten the pain and the hopelessness that a failed relationship can bring. Must I relive those memories again in order to help them? My heart is healed, yes. But to start looking for where the scars are again.. I don't know if I really want to. That means I have to open my heart, isn't it? I'll much rather stick to safe platonic relationships that won't threaten the inner sphere of peace i've created. Oh God... have I stopped listening to my heart once more? After enduring that two years of a painful heart's journey with You?
i guess I have to. Because I can't stand myself now. I can easily give that impatient 'why-don't-you-move-on-from-that-ass-and-stop-being-weak' attitude, but I know God doesn't want me to. I can be my usual obliging self and tahan that hour of listening and then forget about it after that. Or I can start loving the broken-hearted, just like how Jesus would.
Jesus, I need you so badly.
Break the ice that has formed over my heart.
Watch my back for me as I take this risky step of faith.
The ability to pierce the heart like no other, to leave a trail of despair and destruction in its wake, to ravage, to make complete fools of us, to strike fear and acute wariness in the hearts of many.
BUT still, we all DESIRE them.
Oh God, why are you reminding me about relationships? I can't counsel others anymore. I've forgotten. I've forgotten the pain and the hopelessness that a failed relationship can bring. Must I relive those memories again in order to help them? My heart is healed, yes. But to start looking for where the scars are again.. I don't know if I really want to. That means I have to open my heart, isn't it? I'll much rather stick to safe platonic relationships that won't threaten the inner sphere of peace i've created. Oh God... have I stopped listening to my heart once more? After enduring that two years of a painful heart's journey with You?
i guess I have to. Because I can't stand myself now. I can easily give that impatient 'why-don't-you-move-on-from-that-ass-and-stop-being-weak' attitude, but I know God doesn't want me to. I can be my usual obliging self and tahan that hour of listening and then forget about it after that. Or I can start loving the broken-hearted, just like how Jesus would.
Jesus, I need you so badly.
Break the ice that has formed over my heart.
Watch my back for me as I take this risky step of faith.
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