Does love and pain come hand in hand....

Some people say... that loving a person doesn't mean you have to own them; it's about caring for them. I don't know if I can do that. I wish I could, but the pain in my heart is saying otherwise.

I can wait for you, but everyday will be a silent torture that does not even promise a hope that will be fulfiled.

I can die to you, and then I'll spend the days lamenting on how transient human emotions can be, how easily they fade with the ebbing of time.

I can't decide what to do...
Oh Lord, please guide me in Your ways, and give me strength and the will to surrender it all to you. I want to trust, but I am so scared of losing something that is so precious to me.