It just striked me that our personal struggles and problems..
no other human being can truely understand?
Friends can sympathize and share about similar experiences, but the nature of your problems will never be exactly the same as theirs, simply because these struggles are not made up of merely the physical stimulus, but the feelings and emotions that are stirred up by it. And these feelings and emotions are entirely unique to each different being! How do you know whether my sadness is of the same tone or intensity of another's sadness? We can never tell 100%.
How many times in life, have we felt that what we are feeling is beyond description, beyond what words can convey? I've felt that countless times. And i've come to realise that how much people understand us is limited by how much we can express ourselves. That's such a saddening thought! UgH... Even with body language.. we can only guess!
Maybe that's why it takes a lifetime to know your friends, your spouse, your family. Everyday you discover something new about someone, and even then, you grapple with trying to understand that aspect of theirs.
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Actually what triggered off this whole train of thoughts was my mum. Her favourite pet tortoise has been sick for a long time, and it's not gonna last long. My mum came into my room crying today and she asked me why God allowed this when she's been praying so hard. The rest of her 6 tortoises passed away in the last couple of months, and this one is the sole surviving one. I was stumped man. Didn't know what to say. And it doesn't help that I have no particular soft spot for tortoises. I sat there in silence, glancing at my mum. Wishing so hard i could share her burden of sorrows with her, but i just didn't know how.
Somehow.. i felt God impressing on my heart then. Only I can, Angie...
Could that be true? God could understand my mum and share her pain when i, her daughter who should know her best, couldn't?
Suddenly, Psalm 139 came into my mind. Topic? God's perfect knowledge of man. Man... God sure delivers at the right time.. => Do take the time to read this, my dear friends. It has blessed me so much. I hope it will for you too.
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Psalm 139
For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.
1 O LORD , you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD .
5 You hem me in-behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.
19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD ,
and abhor those who rise up against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
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no other human being can truely understand?
Friends can sympathize and share about similar experiences, but the nature of your problems will never be exactly the same as theirs, simply because these struggles are not made up of merely the physical stimulus, but the feelings and emotions that are stirred up by it. And these feelings and emotions are entirely unique to each different being! How do you know whether my sadness is of the same tone or intensity of another's sadness? We can never tell 100%.
How many times in life, have we felt that what we are feeling is beyond description, beyond what words can convey? I've felt that countless times. And i've come to realise that how much people understand us is limited by how much we can express ourselves. That's such a saddening thought! UgH... Even with body language.. we can only guess!
Maybe that's why it takes a lifetime to know your friends, your spouse, your family. Everyday you discover something new about someone, and even then, you grapple with trying to understand that aspect of theirs.
* *
Actually what triggered off this whole train of thoughts was my mum. Her favourite pet tortoise has been sick for a long time, and it's not gonna last long. My mum came into my room crying today and she asked me why God allowed this when she's been praying so hard. The rest of her 6 tortoises passed away in the last couple of months, and this one is the sole surviving one. I was stumped man. Didn't know what to say. And it doesn't help that I have no particular soft spot for tortoises. I sat there in silence, glancing at my mum. Wishing so hard i could share her burden of sorrows with her, but i just didn't know how.
Somehow.. i felt God impressing on my heart then. Only I can, Angie...
Could that be true? God could understand my mum and share her pain when i, her daughter who should know her best, couldn't?
Suddenly, Psalm 139 came into my mind. Topic? God's perfect knowledge of man. Man... God sure delivers at the right time.. => Do take the time to read this, my dear friends. It has blessed me so much. I hope it will for you too.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Psalm 139
For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.
1 O LORD , you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD .
5 You hem me in-behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.
19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD ,
and abhor those who rise up against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
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