Why can he walk away so easily though he knows i'm hurting inside? Just because it's a small issue? I keep getting hurt... keep getting hurt cuz i dunno how to express myself.. and cuz he doesn't bother to ask.. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Just when i've written such a nice and hopeful letter to him.. it had to happen. I'm major screwed up...
Even when he knows i'm leaving.. he doesn't bother to control his anger or try to cuddle me and make me happy. I think i finally see how important i am to him. Damn F~~~ing PAInful.

N it pains me so much to know my mum's worried sick over my diving trip... and i can't do ANYthing about it... i cried when i realised my parents specially stayed up tonight till i came home. PRob cuz i'm leaving tomor. I love them soooo much... but i dunno how to express it and tell them to stop worryin for me. How can i go in peace when i know my parents are so scared for my safety? I can only trust that God 'll take care of them and reassure them for me.
So helpless ....